Possibilities

Unconditional Love

“ Children begin by loving their parents; as they grow older they judge them; sometimes, they forgive them”. - Oscar Wilde

Reverb 1-6 

#Reverb10 is 30 blog posts through the month of December to help you reflect on the year.

12/1

My one word for 2010 is better because it was much better than a lot of other years. I felt good about myself a lot of the time and accomplished things like losing 10 lbs,  graduating college, made 2 documentaries, got into grad school.

My word for 2011 will be change. Change because I am going to try to become less allergic to change. And, because I need to change my body in order to feel better about myself.

12/2 Writing

What do I do each day that prevents me from writing?

Working, Sleeping, Eating. I can’t really eliminate those things - though I’ve tried. I think I will cut down on eating.

12/3

Moment. Lots of good moments this year.

I’ll go with when I was making my documentary Not Dead Yet  I was at the show in the opening sequence, filming a band I really loved and I was so happy to be doing that. I had gone to a lot of shows before, and I had filmed stuff before, but this was what I always dreamed of doing when I changed my major to R/T/F. I was finally making something I really cared about and really loved. If I could do that every day I would be really happy.

12/4 - My BIRTHDAY

Wonder. How did I cultivate wonder in my life?

I don’t know, what do you mean wonder? Admiration?

I admire my brother for being honest even though I don’t support his new found habits. I wonder how my mom gets through the days sometimes dealing with all she has to deal with.

I wonder how in the world places like The Pool After Dark exists. It looks like a scene from a movie every time I walk in there and I think that even though I’ve been there like 3 or 4 times I still don’t believe it exists.

12/5

Let Go.

I let go of someone who used to be a really good friend, a best friend. But the friendship had a lot of flaws and it became unhealthy for me. I am probably better off.

12/6

Make.

The last thing I made was an ornament at RAH on Thursday. I painted a glass ornament with modge podge (this goofy glue like stuff) and covered in in colorful tissue paper. I want to make another documentary about something I love.I need time and money to do this. Time away from school and my job and money to live because I won’t have a job.

#reverb10

My Reluctant Return

I have been reading a lot of blogs by my friends lately, and keeping my own for class purposes at www.jesslandolfi.com and I have been thinking it would be nice blog myself. About whatever I want. That’s what this is about right? Writing, posting, whatever you want just because. Today I was a 20 minutes late to work. I hate being late, but I’m late all the time. I don’t think about being late when I roll over to sleep for 20 more minutes, or the night before when I decide it’s a good idea to stay up and watch The Nanny. I don’t think about being late when I try on my 15th outfit which is really just a version of the 1st outfit. But being late never feels good, it’s not a happy experience. Tomorrow I’m going to try to be on time. In other news, it was brought to my attention today that it’s supposed to snow in 10 days. I hate snow with a passion and it only means I will be snowed in alone in my apartment. Sucks. As much as I am a loner, as in, I’m in my own head all of the time and I don’t like to share my feelings with others which separates me in an awful way from everyone I know - I do love being around other people. I like hanging out and doing fun things. I just don’t like to share anything remotely close to personal. It didn’t work out in the past so I gave up. Sometimes I write in my journal - as in a book that’s handwritten that no one else sees but me. I’ve found that the people that share a lot have more friends, but since it’s never worked that way for me I just don’t. And this separation that I mentioned before is really lonely. But I mean it’s whatever I guess. I don’t really have time, most of the time, to think about things like this. I just keep moving forward. Working. Doing Homework. Going to bed. Rinse and Repeat. I think I’m going to participate in #reverb10 and those 30 writing prompts. It will force me to write more and think more in the form of words which will only help me in this crazy masters program I got myself into.

Titanic…the movie, not the boat

Titanic is on TNT right now, and I love it. A friend of mine confessed they never saw it and I really think that seeing this movie is a staple for living life. You miss out on a crucial moment in pop culture, as well as a lifetime of Leonardo DiCaprio jokes.

******Spoiler Alert******

The boat sinks.

I do enjoy this movie though, really I do.

Key Scenes

That’s basically the movie in photos, at least the ones I could find.

rowan

I’ve been back at school for four days and I feel overwhelmed. Boo!

E-A-G-L-E-S

The first Eagles game of the year for me is Thursday night. It’s only preseason, but as I prepared (and by prepare I mean get really pumped) I can only think of Brian Dawkins, my favorite Eagle who is no more. Dawkins is a Bronco this year, and it breaks my heart, but I guess will see how the defense will do without him. Here’s hoping…